Accusation and Regret/Forever Never


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Forever Never/The Dawn of Illusion

 

by Cheryl Pennington

copyright 2014

 

The tale continues….

On Domhan, something has invaded the peace and serenity of Foirfeachta, stealing in as the inhabitants lie sleeping soundly, and calls forth the Daughter of Domhan, leading her into a web of deception that she is too confused and hopeful to perceive.  One other has been watching from afar; and although she calls to the female M’na, the longing within the lonely mother’s bosom drowns out her cries into the mists.  Frantically the Sorceress continues to call to the Realm, begging the goddess mother to intervene and to help the Garden Family and its unwitting guests…..

 

Accusation and Regret
 
Naofa had risen to the point of utter despair by the time Bandia reached her through the hazy mists of beckoning.  The goddess tried to calm her daughter,  and to explain that she had been deep within the Realm where they were preparing the soul of As’me  for her return to  physical life; but Naofa, agitated beyond consolation, demanded to be heard.

“Mother Bandia, there is something terribly wrong in Foirfeachta. He-It-has gone there.”  Her voice rose in desperation as she grasped for the words to make her mother understand.   “I don’t know how He plans to harm M’na’s family; but He has taken on the form of Mother Inion. I saw him transform.  There is great deception for your children there!”

 
Bandia could not hide her confusion. “Who is there?  What “he“,  my daughter?”  Naofa was losing patience and began to shout at her mother in frustration.
 
 
Ar’tine! That dark son of Mac-he, with whom you seemed to have formed such a close bond.”  She suddenly held her breath for fear she would say things which she could not retrieve and felt immediately sorry for accusing her Mother.
 
 
Naofa knew it was with genuine love and forgiveness that those within the Realm had taken Ar’tine back into their bosom of trust; but she could still sense the overwhelming darkness that was seducing his soul. The Sorceress wanted to love the god in the name of Eternity;  but she also loved her own world and would stop at nothing to protect its living family. Her thoughts ran wild, so much so that she scarcely heard her mother trying to assure her even as she was groping for peace of mind.

“Ar’tine is on Domhan Eile, my child. He is preparing for the chance to create once more, as soon as Mor will allow it..”  Pulled from her thoughts, Naofa struggled to speak in a more rational tone, even as she fought the urge to scream in the goddess’s face. “I…saw...his dark form…outside M’na and Fireann’s home…and watched as he lead her into the inner Garden.”  She told herself to breathe…just breathe…oh, how could she make her mother understand? But the goddess was catching up rapidly.

Now it was Bandia’s turn to panic. “What did he do there? Did her harm M’na? Where was Fireann?”

“I did my best…I called to M’na, plead with her to hear me.  Again and again, I cried out to her with all my soul; but she was as one without thought, without ears.  She was under his control, I know it!  After I watched her enter the sacred Garden, I decided to turn my energy to you-anyone within the Realm to help me-to help her!”

 
Bandia’s form was faint from the moment she had arrived and continued to fade as they both grew more distressed. The Sorceress wept as she watched her mother disappearing slowly from sight, all the while urging Naofa to do what she could to help the Garden Family.

“Go to Foirfeachta and help in whatever way you can. I am going to Ar’tine. I will know what his mischief has been before another cycle passes on Domhan!”

 
Naofa heaved a sigh of relief as she collapsed onto the floor, cupping her hands over her face and weeping bitterly into them. She was overwhelmed by emotion.  How could she have failed her friends so miserably?  How could the Eternal Realm not have known what the Dark Son was planning? What would keep him from entering their world again to poison it at will?  Flinging her arms upward to the ceiling of her home, she cried out in anger and disappointment, her fists  clenching and unclenching as she begged for answers from her Creators.
 
“Spiorad Mor! Where are you?  Could you not hear my cries of desperation?  Have you forgotten your children in this physical world?!”   Anger had driven her and was sapping her energy now.  Collapsing again before the fire, she crumpled  in utter exhaustion, her hands once again covering her tear streaked face.

The fire began to crackle loudly as an intense heat began rising from the flames. Lowering her hands, the distraught female looked at the place where there had been only small flickers and smoldering embers before. Within the stone fire pit blazed a full glow of brilliance, a light so bright she could scarcely look at it. She lifted her arm to shield her eyes against the burning essence.

 
Suddenly the fire was smoldering and the room began to fill with gray smoke.  The Sorceress, although not afraid, thought surely she would choke being enveloped in the fire’s breath; but, miraculously, she was not overcome. Curiously she stared at the gray cloud that began to slowly circle her body; and she became transfixed as it begin to take form.  Rising from the ashes of the fire to stand high above her was an indistinguishable gray bird; but as the smoke faded, what now peered down into her awed face was undeniably the sacred bird of cleansing.  It was they who feasted on the flesh of the dead and they, who sat patiently waiting for their next meal, never killing, never stealing as the other predators did.  These glorious birds worked to keep Domhan clean; and all of its living things marveled at their ability to glide endlessly upon the winds.  Seeing them circle was like watching a ceremony in the skies.
 

The Sorceress’s mouth fell open at the sight of the enormous creature looming over her. She could feel its breath and hear its heartbeat reverberating all around her.   As the smoke receded she could see it clearly; and, somehow, she was not surprised when the bird began to speak.  Naofa could not hear its words with her ears and saw no movement from its face.  Instead, she seemed to simply feel them inside her head.  It was as if her entire body was alive with its thought; and when Mor spoke to Naofa every fiber of her being responded. 

 
“Daughter of Light.  Why do you despair?  I am never away from you.  As one of my Creations, I am with you, around you and within you. Always.  It is merely the veil of energy that surrounds your physical creation which prevents your being able to see this truth with every breath that you take. You must know that every thing that you feel or know, each desire of your heart and every thought that you have, is known my me. I am the First Creator, the Experience, living along with you and your brethren in this Creation.  Although this world has been created by Eternity,  it is for you to decide your own path, your own design of creation.  You must also decide when to intervene in the name of Love and Light , or when to allow the path of eventuality to be forged. Your Mother has gifted you with many powers.  Only by experience will you truly learn how to use these gifts.  Know that in all of existence, nothing can truly be destroyed but by me.  And there is no end to anything which is a part of the whole.  All came from Spirit and all returns to Spirit.  There is no beginning and no end. There is only Being.  If ever you cease to be joyful in your journeys, if ever you lose the longing to exist, to create or be a part of anyone’s creation..you can but ask and I will accept you back into the bosom of Eternal Light. You would no more wish my interference in your existence than if you had never been allowed to become conscious of it. We are but infants in the thought that is Creation, much as the first child of Domhan once was. We must navigate this journey together. I am always with you.  In this knowledge must you find comfort.  For even if your physical body suffers, or may be destroyed, your soul remains ever one with Great Spirit.  This is your legacy, and this must you share with those you call your beloved. Close your eyes now, and let me share my love with you.”

Noafa did as she was told. She closed her eyes and released her fear. All of that which was in her heart and her mind became as the emptiness. As soon as the last conscious thought faded from her mind, her entire being became energized. Warm Light surrounded her and she trembled. Tiny bumps rippled across her flesh.  She felt so full and happy in that moment with Spirit that  she began to weep uncontrollably.  Tears streamed down her cheeks as she felt the vastness of Eternity within her bosom; and the Creator spoke again.

“Remember this Love; take it with you; and in all things you shall be victorious in the way of Spirit.”

It was the last thing she comprehended from Mor as the morning slipped into midday. She opened her eyes to the small, flickering flames in her fire as they had been before. Gone was the bird, the smoke, and the burning heat..  But not gone was the feeling of Unconditional Love and knowing.  She now understood her purpose. Her name took on new meaning within her mind.

 

Immediately Naofa began gathering her things to head for the Garden.  M’na would soon be in need of her gifts. Of this much she was certain. Within the stillness of her heart, she whispered fervent thanks to Spiorad Mor.  Never again would she doubt Its greatness; and she would always be accompanied by Vulture in her travels.  It winged its way ahead of her by day and nested in the trees near her place of rest at night. The bird became her reminder of Mor’s promise in Spirit and was her familiar and friend in the physical world.

 
to be continued…….
 
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Thank you, Neil Diamond for this beautiful song….
 
 
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9 thoughts on “Accusation and Regret/Forever Never

  1. First, I must express how glad I am that this installment did not focus on M’na. I was scared for M’na and I still feel the suspense in my heart. I want to know what became of her . . . but, hey, you know these things are: You want and you don’t want! It is the best thing about reading the story I love. The hesitation, the tremors.
    I wonder what Bandia is going to do about the deception. And I think it is sublime to use the vulture to represent the spirit of Mor; it is totally in contrast with the norm concerning the symbol of the spirit: the dove, specifically. The fire of his coming reminds me of Moses and the Burning Bush. And what wisdom he brings! “. . . there is no end to anything which is part of the whole.” Makes me wonder: if we are energy and an essential part of the universe, how can it be said that we cease to exist upon death? Ancient people believed in souls; now the concept of souls is derided. Simultaneously, we all agree that “Energy cannot be destroyed” but can be converted to other forms.
    Mor’s words are rich and nourishing, and when Naofa is calmed and at the same time suffused with the benevolence of the great Spirit, I identify with her state, considering her previous fears and regrets respecting M’na’s fate. And the assurance: “If ever you cease to be joyful in your journeys, if ever you lose the longing to exist, to create or be a part of anyone’s creation, you can but ask and I will accept you back into the bosom of Eternal Light.”–Is there a greater love than that with which the people of Domhan are regarded and beheld? There is no greater love than that manifest in Mor’s words. He is a transcendent being and he exhibits an understanding much deeper than our own. If we could commune with God and he ascends to answer us! Ha! The wretched we! Sometimes I wish I had lived in those times when God was directly in charge of us, like during Noah, Abraham, Jacob, Moses, etc. These times!

    I would like to know what Bandia did when she confirmed what had befallen M’na in the Garden, and what the child of deception would grow up to be. Even more, I am waiting for M’na’s reaction upon discovering the deception. Does she even know what deception is? She is so innocent and full of love and passion. They know no hurt. What about Fireann? What is Naofa going to do when she reaches the Garden? And is Ar’tine watching all this progress? Did he know that Naofa had witnessed his journey? Did he hear her prayer to Bandia? Did he see them together? What will he do when his corruption is revealed?

    Waiting avidly . . .

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    1. Thank you once again Peter, for reading my words and understnading their purpose. As to your questions, you will know answers when next I post.
      I agree about man’s inability to commune directly with Mor in modern times, but the greater failing falls upon us, I fear. If yiu have never read the books, Conversations with God, by Neal Donald Walsch, I highly recommend it. They are the books which inspired me to begin my own direct communication with Spirit. I think so often that it is not so much that we don’t hear the voice of our Creator(s) but rather we don’t want to accept the answets. And the. We have so much other noise going on up there, our emotions ruling our gray matter. My vision of God falls somewhere between Spock and the aliens in the mocvie The Abyss. Live and logic. Without the egoic emotions. Spirit without mind. Anyway, I do appreciate your comments and feedback. It makes this all worthwhile for me. I cannot wait for your own nwxt piece of fiction!

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      1. I saw The Abyss movie by James Cameron. The aliens under the sea. Always watching us. Monitoring our activities. I think you are right that we do not want to accept the answers given us by God. We must hear his voice; it’s the answers we fear, or hate. Our emotions, I do not know whether they are a blessing or a curse. When we portray people without emotions, in the movies or some other media, they are usually brutal and inhuman, diabolical ghouls. But the emotions have also filled us with poison against one another, have held us in bondage. Milton, in Paradise Lost, portrayed God as a supremely rational being, who knows everything before it happens, and is always just and inculpable, without egoistic motivations whatsoever and whose love for us is immortal. I think so he is.

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      2. I must apologize, Peter, for not answering this comment. Somehow it went to my spam folder and I only check that every week or so. Yes, I agree about the nature of God and Its complete objectivity for all within Its creation. What greater love could there be than to not be swayed unduly by emotional tides? They are fun to ride until they overwhelm us, often making us feel as if we may well drown in them. We, as humans are quite addicted to emotions. I believe it is one reason we are here. To learn to master this physical life with all of its emotions and effects. But there are many theories, I suspect. I need to read Paradise Lost. I have heard before that it is good. Thanks so much for sharing my journey through this story. :))

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      3. I saw The Abyss movie by James Cameron. The aliens under the sea. Always watching us. Monitoring our activities. I think you are right that we do not want to accept the answers given us by God. We must hear his voice; it’s the answers we fear, or hate. Our emotions, I do not know whether they are a blessing or a curse. When we portray people without emotions, in the movies or some other media, they are usually brutal and inhuman, diabolical ghouls. But the emotions have also filled us with poison against one another, have held us in bondage. Milton, in Paradise Lost, portrayed God as a supremely rational being, an embodiment of pure reason, who knows everything before it happens, and is always just and inculpable, without egoistic motivations whatsoever and whose love for us is immortal. I think so He is.

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  2. Thanks for reminding me of that song! Is it a turkey vulture? We have them here, but I’ve never got such a close-up! Quite the guy 🙂

    Interesting reading. When do you think you’ll have it finished?

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    1. Well, the story is complete already but while posting chapters on my blog, I am doing final editing and appreciating any feedback I am getting. I am not sure of the exact classification for this big guy. They are all over in Costa Rica. They were my muses in the little jungle house and were always there. One day when Iw as feeling sorrowful and homesick I just couldn’t pull out of it to write. Suddenly I heard this weird scratching on the roof and thought it was a raccoon or monkey. When I went out to look this very large vulture was there and would. Ot leave until I pulled out my computer and started to write. It was literally 8 feet from me at the peak of the A frame. I took a greats eries of photos first though. The bird told me to get over it and get on with it. So I did. 🙂

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      1. A lovely experience! Sometimes I get the feeling, they’re trying to tell us something 🙂
        The animal life in CR is something out of the ordinary, I hear. My husband spent some time there, long ago…
        You write extremely well, and I’m sure you’ll have success with this. Admittedly, it’s not my genre at all, but I read and I think it’s terrific.

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      2. Thank you for reading then. I so appreciate it and your words of encouragement. You should visit there some day. Talk about photo ops…..:)

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